The CSB Experience 4: Internal Defense, Internal Struggles (The Conclusion)

Feeling so much of a haggard today brought by last night's internal defense. I got home late and I slept late. It's a good thing I only had 1 class today. At least I was able to find ample free time to make up for lost sleep.

Last night was just simply awesome for the fact that Proj1 is no longer gonna keep me from reaching the end of my life as a student (I'm hoping it'd be the same with BIZ1). Since I started The CSB Experience, I have always stated that I am fearful of any little thing that could hold me back from fully be done with school. Although there is still one trimester left for me to complete, I can't help but think that the end is near.

What happened at panel opened my eyes to stuff I thought I could never do. It made me wonder of the things I could possibly do as a profession once I venture off to the real world.

My video-hypernarrative thesis project, entitled "An Almost Affair" which focus on marital issues (fronted primarily by the issue of infidelity) which I sought to give a different take on the typical love story so as not to reinforce stereotypes typically seen on television dramas. In addition, I want my film to possess the look and feel of a soap opera to make it appealing to my intended target market.

After presenting my contents to my panelists, they commented that I seem to have a tendency on making stories that are too depressing and somehow, tragic. It's something I can't blame them for actually.

 Other than that, they suggest recasting all but one of my actors, replacing them with ones who looks and acts like my 20-something year old characters. One of them said that I'd be better off not marketing my project as a "mini-soap opera". I could still stick with the "look and feel part" but the format itself, I need to ditch altogether. They think it won't work, seeing the risks that I might face once I undergo my external defense several months from now.

I try to defend my stand on the matter but they keep on talking and commenting that I really didn't have much of a chance to explain further. It didn't help that my mind's psyched out but at least i was able to compose myself. They mentioned I have a liking towards using big words so they were discouraging me from using such as it might lead to complications.

In the end, I passed with flying colors but I have to keep in mind the things that I must change for the next few months. It's shame though that I won't be able to ultimately use the existing footage, especially the ones I shot in Vatel Restaurant. Me and my cast have put a lot of effort, energy, sweat and all that shiz so i could produce the footage I need to present for defense and I was hoping I could still use them beside continuing production next year.

This poses as a challenge for me to step up the plate as this is a project that will, as I mentioned time and again, make or break me and will prove crucial on the decision factor if I am going to end the school with a bang!

GO LANG NG GO!