Sunday, August 29, 2010

The Last Day of a Teenage Life


The clock is slowly ticking, the sands in the hourglass going pass one more day, and the PC-generated e-clock is telling me the 30th of August is near. To some, it is just an ordinary day, a civil holiday at the least in the Philippines. But for someone like me, it is more than just a civil holiday, it is the last day of my teenage life.

Yes peeps, I'll spend the last 24 hours making the most of what is left of me being a teen.

Scary thought that afterwards, I'll be hitting the big 2--0, BEINTE or what I've been branding this since I started my birthday countdown last July, 20@10. I'll age a year more, a year more wiser, a year more experienced, and so on.

So what I've been up to for the last 10 years? Nothing much except maybe had some of the most wackiest things to ever happen in my life during that period. I could list it all down if I could but so far...:

1)Wore my first pair of eyeglasses
2)Went and lived abroad for a year
3)Became a school athlete
4)Participated in a musical recital
5)Went "gala" all by myself which led me to places like MOA, to Paragon Plaza to the Philamlife Theater in U.N. Avenue.
6)Went to a school trip to Mount Banahaw being the only high school freshman in a batch of seniors.
7)Traveled to Singapore alone
8)Was dance partners with his Grade 6 crush for a charity event
9)Knocked out but ended up winning a medal in a competition anyway.
10)Became an intern of a radio station

Crazy huh? The list goes on and on and I could not remember them all.

I always fear that I'll reach that point in life that the end of my life is drawing near as I don't know if there is life after death. Being a devout (but not necessarily a really zealous) Catholic, it's hard for me to accept that everything has an end date but I know there's a reason so I have to suck it up and face it.

Like what my kuya said to me 10 years ago, "live life to the fullest".

I need to live a life well lived, I need to make sure that I lived a life that fulfilled my purpose on earth. Because after all, we only have "ONE LIFE TO LIVE".

I think I've already gone far from being this kid who loves to read history books and being a geo-know-it-all to someone who still loves to read anything  historic and still somewhat of a "know-it-all". It really helps that I am with people who continue to support me, to love me, and see me as what I am and what I will continue to shape up to be what I am in this lifetime.

As I enter my 20's, everything will change. May it be for better or otherwise, I'll face it, I'll conquer it.

20 at '10 baby!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

10 Things to Wish for This 20@10

The following are the things which I wish I could have when I turn 20@10. Simple well-wishing lang on the first 5 as I don't want to expect to get this much material stuff. The latter half is a little something that I wish to do when I turn 20, since I they aren't that impossible to materialize as long as I push myself to it. Mangarap ba? :D

1. A Nikon dSLR D40

2. A Mac laptop

3. A New cellphone FM-radio and Wi-Fi capabilities

4. A new bag that can Handle my demands

5. A bicycle

6. Go to Enchanted Kingdom

7. Join a Fun Run

8. Go on a hiking trip

9. Achieve a fit and healthy body with a set of six-pack abs :))

10. Graduate from school


As the saying goes: "Dreams really do come true if you believe...".

10 Days to Go!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

The CSB Experience 4: The Characters of "An Almost Affair"

I'll be posting a casting call real soon but for now, here's the lowdown on what the story is about and the characters dictated by love, passion, devotion and betrayal.

An Almost Affair

A story about love challenged, a story about views in contrasts, a story about relationships rekindled, a story about trying to forget the past in order to move on to the future.

At a time when family dynamics is in the middle of a major overhaul in modern-times, a recently-married couple sits in the dilemma of going either against or along the flow. A husband who tries to be supportive to his wife whom he encourage to do what she wants to do in life thinking that settling downy and start a family can wait.

The wife however is the complete opposite, who despite having a very promising future ahead of her, decides that being a housewife and a mother is what she wants to do as she tries to be the perfect wife to her husband: loving, caring, loyal, and everything else. Despite their differences, their love for each other have helped on keeping their marriage an almost unbreakable bond...until she came.

A brief encounter with another woman led to events that served as challenges to the husband and wife. The "other woman" is a co-worker of the husband whom he barely notices until the day they crossed paths. The husband saw in her something that his wife isn't, things that he wants to see in her and yet doesn't. He and the other woman became very close to each other, but unknown to the husband, the woman hides a past that continues to haunt her.

The wife feels the pressure of trying to please her husband, thinking his is slowly slipping away from her.

What follows after is a tale of decisions leading to events that will either break the bond the holds the husband and wife forever or give them a reason to find the will to trust each other again.


Character characteristics are as follows (No final names for the characters just yet):

1. "Husband" = In his mid-to late 20's. Married for three-four years. Liberal-minded. Does not expect to form a family just yet and encourages his wife to become a career-woman. He led a crappy life before meeting the "wife". Knows how to drive.

2. "Wife" = In her mid-to late 20's. Married for 3-4 years. Highly educated with a promising career ahead of her but gives it all up to become a devoted housewife and mother.

3. "Kerida" = Late 20's to early 30's. Liberated working girl. Shares a lot of things in common the husband. She has a mysterious past that continues to haunt her despite her efforts to move on.

Instrumental characters:

1. "Magnanakaw"
2. "Little Boy"
3. "Little Girl"

*This will be an interative photo-based web comic where visitors have the power to dictate the events of the story by voting what will happen next after every chapter's cliffhanger. Chapters will be updated every 1-2 weeks until it leads up to the final story arc. Past issues can be viewed on an archive webpage.

The entirety fo the project will be unraveled later on. :D

The CSB Experience 4: Fear Itself, Proj is Real

Supposedly, if I have taken MMAOJT in the summer, I would have been taking MMAPROJ1 this term. But unfortunately, circumstances forced me to take long break from proceding with my thesis and at least put focus on my OJT first.

Proj1 is the second stage for my thesis. The first is getting into the planning stage via MSCIETY. This is where you start production on your project based on your chosen topic and medium. In my case, I'm making an interactive web comic with a topic that addresses marriage-related problems. The tentative title of the project is "An Almost Affair", based on a 20-page manuscript I wrote as my finals work for VIDPRD1.

In Msciety alone, I took me half a dozen topic revisions and several changes in medium to finally have one approved across the board. The hitch? I won't be making illustrated panels but will instead make use of photographic stills as panels for my comics. The web comic will be more than 30 "pages" long so I'm planning on dividing it to 10 "chapters" of 3 or so.

 I still have to make my storyboard though as early as now before I formally take my Proj1 class next term as well as start assessing the story itself. It's fortunate that my basis of the whole project, titled "Ang Pagmamahal", is still stacked up in my room. Hehehe...

Nonetheless, there's still a reason for me to fear Proj1. No preparation is enough for me if in the end my fate lies at the hands of panelists that can either make or break you. Just yesterday, I found out my friend didn't make the cut and was forced to repeat everything from scratch. It made me more fearful and careful on what to expect on the second trimester.

As if it's not bad enough, this whole "tri-media" thing is driving me crazy. Why couldn't I have thought of something more simpler, more easy to do? I blame not just myself for ever conceiving such an idea and for my old Msciety professor, Ms Javier who makes the process all the more confusing.

So okay, here's what I'm planning for "An Almost Affair". I'm hoping of making use of shooting exteriors outside school, and I need at least several locations to do the shots: A house, an office, a cafe (hopefully outdoor), a neighborhood street, a cemetery and a mall/palengke.

Casting models is also a priority. Basically, I need three models to portray the story's three major characters. Supporting characters will be needed depending on each "chapter".

A lot of details though is needed to further explain what I intend to do so I'm putting the discussion further on my next blog. Here's to hoping I could survive this next storm.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

The CSB Experience 4: The August Blues

This month have been a bit rocky at the start for me when things got out of hand but I managed somehow to fix it to some degree. I've been thinking at the time of doing the ultimate sacrifice but at the last minute, decided to see what happens next.

It didn't took long before everything I worked for in the past couple of weeks all went to waste. What occurred definitely hit a nerve and I was in this state of sadness and loneliness. I began to think about the things I want to do in my life, the things that I want to be a part with, the things that I wanna be with and the things that I want to learn from the very best.

And then there's the thought of graduating. It's so close yet so far. I can't even give a sure guarantee that I'll manage to weatehr the storm once I'm in thesis mode. The medium hat I'll be doing seems okay but because of that dang tr-media thing that TPTB wants to impose on us, I'm forced to put a spin on that medium so as to appease my advisors. Boo....

I wrote this on my Facebook not to long ago when I was inspired by that mountain hiking trip I participated last weekend:

"College is like a mountain: From the bottom, you have to climb up until you reach the very top...
"

I feel a bit burned out already after more than 3 years in CSB but it doesn't discouraged me from going further to reach my goal. Whatever blockades I face, I know I could overcome them if I have the will and strength to live the life that I want to live.

The real world is harsh, the powers that be can be ruthless, the promise of youth is drained when you're sucked into this vortex of no return. I get it, I've seen it but I've yet to experience it. I see friends already dealing with it, having to resort to being around with a guy who wears a black shirt and they never seem to want to let go of him.

But I know I can get through it, I know the odds are against me but I don't care. Even it means losing everythng I worked hard for, every hope and dreams that gets stashed away. They can never take away my continuing will to dream, to look on the brighter side of things. Critiscism are what shapes me into what I am, what I will, what I want to be.

They see my qualities as my greatest weaknesses, but I say that these are my sources of strength. I could blab about this all day but I stand by my principles, if you call them principles that is.

I'll strive when I'm down, I'll shout for joy when I'm yelled at, I'll smile when I am scorned, and I will walk when I get screwed.

The blues are hitting me like crazy but that's what I get when I feel the need to make myself happy now that in a few weeks, I'll be celebrating 20@10.

:)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

The CSB Experience 4: The Malarayat Fieldwork

I'm starting to think that going out new and different places have become a sort of my thing. I always crave for that certain level of adventure and excitement as I step on new unexplored lands.

Never did I expect that last weekend would bring that level on a higher notch than I would have imagined otherwise.

Last Saturday, August 14. I managed to hitch a ride with Ren and Rachel and caught up with the rest of our classmates in Natsca2 for our Batangas fieldwork. Earlier that day, the three of us had to attend an equally important seminar, the practicum seminar workshop conducted by the CPO.  Important in the sense that it's a requirement for sstudents undergoing their OJT's to attend to such.

Fortunately, luck was on our side and the next thing I knew, I was in my hotel room at the Mt. Malarayat Gold and Country Club in Lipa, Batangas at 8pm in the evening.

We have to get up real early the day after since me and the rest of the Natsca2 sections were supposed to go bird-watching at the mountains before climbing the summit planting tree-lets/seedlings.

We left at around 6am and started our trekking around more or less, a quarter before the hour of 7.  On the first leg of the trek, we stopped by a certain point to catch some birds flying. Using binoculars (or binocs as how eco-people would say), i was able to see some birds although I have no idea what type, variety or kind of bird we saw although Philippine hornbill birds have been the most commonly sighted bird for others in the group.

We spent about 3 hours trekking 8 kilometers of dirt, plants, and rocks up in the mountains, passing by poachers (yes, poachers), rural folk, and locally-domesticated horses and their horse poop.

The moment we reached the summit, I was amazed by what I saw. It's like we're in a freakin' Lord of the Rings. Can;t desrcibe it in full detail but you can imagine Frodo passing by this area hehehe. Not soon after, we got ourselves wet and dirty planting seedlings on poked holes on the ground and on the mountain side. I actually have to climb one to plant several plants over there.

I would have gotten myself tired by that time already but obviously, I just reached my peak as I breathe the fresh poopy air touching my face as I gazed upon the mountaintop.

But it quickly got drained out when we spent 2.5 hours going down the mountain. By the time we reached the foot, that's when I felt a sudden drop of energy.

Nonetheless, trekking a mountain indeed was an exciting experience. It made me think of doing it again for the sake of keeping the spirit of adventure alive.

This is one trip that I will never forget. This surely equate the fun that I have 7 years ago with Banahaw.

Woot woot!

The CSB Experience 4: Graphique Manille

What happens when after so many unsuccessful and unfortunate attempts to do a certain thing you finally got it right? Eternal happiness? Well, maybe...At least that's what I felt after finally being able to attend to this year's Graphika Manila.

Graphika Manila, like the one I attended last June in Singapore, is a highly-anticipated international multimedia event: A gathering of students, professionals, designers, and new media art enthusiasts. But unlike CG Overdrive, GM is a one-day event. More than just a one-day event to be exact, it serves as the opening kick-off for this year's Manila Design Week.

There have been attempts by me to get the chance on going to this event since second year college. The first time, GM was in conflict with my NSTP1 class, with both being on a Saturday so I was forced to sell my ticket to someone who needs it the most.

The second time, I thought nothing would go wrong this time until the day before the event, I made a fool of myself getting victimized by the Budol-Budol gang syndicate (on the day RT30 made its debut on 99.5RT).

(Note: By coincidence, it's been a year since that happened, on August 14)

Maybe this time, third time's a charm although I wouldn't have count on it because of circumstances occurred early this month. But it's a good thing that I made it past that episode and went to GM without a hitch.

A lot of people were there in attendance at the event's venue, the SMX Convention Center. I manage to arrive there atr the nick of time just when the first set of speakers have started their session that morning. I don't want to elaborate further so here's the rundown on what occured:

1. Arnold and Cynthia Arre=Husband and wife team who were "best known for their individual works". Cynthia is best known as the cover artists for the greatest hits album of the E-Heads while her hubby is behind some popular Pinoy graphic novels which I've yet to get avail of myself.

2.  Phunk Studio=Several guys from SIngapore who were behind the production of several OBB's of some programs for MTV Asia. 2 of them were present. I wasn;t able to hear much of them when I went out to go to the restroom but happened to have see by chance Jeo, Alyssa and Clarizze along the way.

3. Underground Logic=It;s a production house who were behind some successful ad campaigns for which they were responsible for breathing life into their ads. Among them was the Pepsi 2010 campaign, the Nissin Cup Noodles campaign (the Japanese-inspired one), the ad campaign for Sunsilk (featuring Marian Rivera, Nikki Gil and Maja Salvador), among others.

4. Danny Yount=The guy who not only was involved in creating the intros for Ironman 2 and The Invasion but also behind the conceptualization and awesome production of the several show opening credits (Six Feet Under and Pushing Daisies) and promos for Cartoon Network and Discovery Channel in the US. Exciting as his portfolio is though, his discussion on how he made some of his work began to bore a few however.

5. Tara McPherson=The only international female speaker in GM according to the hosts. She's quite the psychedlc artist with a style that she calls her own. Many of the works she showed us contains a common thing, women and carved out hearts. Don't asky me why but more ore less that's how she define her style. One thing I learned from her is that to become a better artist, you need to continually build up your portfolio. Did I mentioned she looks a bit like Lady Gaga (but to a lesser extent).

6.  Rocketsheep Post=This year's fan-favorite. Rocketsheep Post's leading man showed us the Pinoy way of making movie magic through the use of "Jejeworks" (?) and "Dayamation" but at the same time stressed the importance of planning things out while making big-budget projects like this one ongoing movie project that has been under production since my high school days. The movie stars Rhian Ramos and hopefully, they get to finish the movie soon before I get my first job after college.

It was a fun experience and no doubt that, it turned things for the better, for my sake.

Until next year!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Thoughts of Moving On to It!

Yes, my Multiply account is still active it's just that I haven't been blogging for a while now because of time spent in doing stuff for school. The only "blogging" I get to do is typing whatever's on my mind as my status for FB, Twitter and Plurk.Lazy right?

Well, I've been thinking about continuing writing my original posts on Facebook instead of writing it on Multiply. One reason is that for the past year or two, I've noticed a significant drop of viewership in jbata5.multiply.com and it's not just mine, but to others as well. If in 2007, the in thing was Multiply, then today it's Facebook that's taking the central spotlight.

If I remember it right, Dianne signed up on FB a few years after she made a vow to me that she's fine using Multiply when I invited her then to join Facebook (I signed up on FB around January 2007 then on Multiply on March that same year).

Since starting The J-Blog Files in 2007 (which was originally intended to exist as a way to reply on a Multiply link Dianne put up on her YM status), I've written over 550 entries with some still unpublished. I think I've reached the point of getting a bit burned out sharing whatever it is that I want to share to the rest of the world: My life, my feel good moments, my misfortunes in life, and whatever it is that I want to write about.

What's worse is that no one's reading what I'm posting here anymore unless Multiply gets itself a tagging function similar to FB's. In addition, Multiply as a whole have degenerated into an online marketplace for people trying to sell items on the net, with ads eating up a good chunk of space on my page alone. The essence of what the site was intended seemed to have lost its way, like how Friendster was before it went downhill.

As much as I want to end my misery and quit Multiply for good, there's still a reason for me to hang on. For one, it has become my refuge of putting my inner thoughts that I don't want other people to read on Facebook (except for the occasional poetry that I get to type on FB), second I've been thinking of putting a certain end date writing blog entries for The J-Blog Files on the same manner how I started doing it anyway.

Come to think of it, my first ever post on Multiply is titled "Just Before Graduation". I wrote it just mere hours before I headed out to school to march on the day of my high school graduation. If ever I do get to finish college on my projected end date, July 2011...That's where I want to put my final entry under jbata5.multiply.com. I'm already thinking of my final blog's title as something like "After I Graduated", hours after I graduate from school altogether.

Cool right?

It's also a nice way to see how far I've come from the grammatical error-filled posts to the somehow sane writings that I manage to put up on the site.

Putting an end date does not signify the end of The J-Blog Files however. In fact, I hope that this could eb the start of a new beginning as I still want to write to reflect my life's adventures as I head out to the real world. The J-Blog Files helped me find who I am to myself, who I am to others. It will continue to be as I struggle to the woes of life and enjoy the bliss that comes after it.

Besides, I still have to continue writing The CSB Experience, and the remaining chapters on my long delayed fiction stories: Paglisan and When She Left Me.

So for now, enjoy yourselves as I put the "J" to the word "Blog"!